“YOU DON’T KNOW MY STRUGGLES”

I
TOLD YOU ONCE BEFORE
WHY MUST I TELL YOU AGAIN?
YOU DON’T KNOW MY STRUGGLES – NONE THAT YOU WILL EVER COMPREHEND,

I’VE TOLD YOU IN BUNDLES, I’VE LENT YOU MY HANDS,
I’VE STOOD THROUGH THE FURRY AND FOUGHT TO THE DEATH WITH MY SO CALLED FRIENDS,

AND IN THE END-

MY BATTLE’S STILL GO ON AND I’VE ONLY WON A FEW,
 NOW I UNDERSTAND WHEN MY FATHER WOULD SPEAK TO ME AS A MAN SO THAT I WOULDN’T RETAIN AN ADOLESCENTS POINT OF VIEW, 

SO THESE COMMON THOUGHTS WOULDN’T REMAIN OR CONTINUE,
ALL GROWN UP AND NEVER FORGETTING THE CLIMB THAT I’VE ENDURED AND MADE IT THROUGH,

MY PASSIONS, MY LOSSES, MY GAINS,
MY HOPES, MY WISHES, MY DREAMS, AND MY PAINS,

MY  NIGHTMARES, MY LONELINESS, MY STRUGGLES, MY DAYS,
MY TEARS, MY HURT, MY SORROWS, AND RESENTMENT TO PUSH THEM AWAY,

 IN TRUTH SOMETIMES THERE ARE MANY RIDDLES OF LIES,
THE IMPOSSIBILITY OF SHAKING ALL THESE ISSUES UNTIL I CLOSE MY EYES,

MY FINAL CRIES,

AND IN THAT MOMENT COULD IT THEN BE UNDERSTOOD?
ALL THE STRUGGLES OF MY LIFE, CAN ANYONE TELL ME IF THEY WILL BE GONE FOR GOOD?

NO VOICES THAT SCREAM, NO LOOKS OF DISGRACE,
WILL ALL THE SCARS FINALLY LEAVE MY TORMENTED FACE?

WILL MY BATTERED HEART FULL OF PASSION AND LOVE,
BE UNDERSTOOD IN HEAVEN UP ABOVE?

I
TOLD YOU ONCE BEFORE
WHY MUST I TELL YOU AGAIN?
YOU DON’T KNOW MY STRUGGLES – NONE THAT YOU WILL EVER COMPREHEND,

I HAVE NOT BEEN PERFECT – NO NEED TO EVER DEFEND OR PRETEND, 
I JUST DESIRE THE  BEST FOR MY CHILDREN, 

AND  IN THE END, 
 THESE VERY SHOES I AM WALKING IN, 

I AM HOPEFUL TO TAKE WITH ME SO NO ONE EVER FOLLOWS NOR EXPERIENCES WHAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED.

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