“GRIEVING”

WONDER IF YOU KNOW MY NAME ANYMORE, 

THE HEARTACHE THAT COMES WHEN A BREAKUP COMES IS LIKE THE RAIN AND ITS HEAVY DOWN POUR, 

THE THINGS I USED TO IGNORE I CAN NOW CLEARLY SEE, 

IT IS HARD WHEN ALL I WANT AND NEEDED WAS TO SEE YOU ALWAYS NEXT TO ME, 

THERE IS A LONG ROAD TO RECOVERY,

…………..I KNOW THERE IS A LONG ROAD AHEAD, 

EVERYDAY THAT ROAD GETS LONGER BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP REVISITING EVERY MEMORY THAT IS IN MY HEAD, 

WITH YOU I FELT RICH AND NOW WITHOUT YOU I AM POOR, 

FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BOUNCING BACK SO FAST, IT JUST SHOWS AND MEANS THAT TO ME YOU MEANT SO MUCH MORE, 

I AM GRIEVING OVER THE LOSS OF OUR LOVE, 

THEY’LL BE A NEW PERSON YOU WILL TURN TO WHO YOU WILL FORM A NEW AND BETTER US, 

SORROW FILLS MY STOMACH SO I CANNOT EAT, 

NO LONGER WALKING ON AIR FOR WHEN YOU LEFT THE AIR WAS GONE AND I NOW FEEL EVERY STEP OF THE COLD CONCRETE, 

ANGRY AT TIMES, I HAVE BROKEN A WALL OR TWO, 

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND AND I AM GUESSING MY TIME WAS DUE, 

TEARS ARE COMING DOWN FROM THINGS I HOPE WEREN’T TRUE, 

AMAZING AFTER A BREAKUP THE THINGS YOU FIND IN TRUTH, 

YOU COULDN’T HAVE LOVED ME THE WAY YOU SAY YOU DID OR CLAIM YOU STILL DO, 

YOU HAVE SHOWN ME THAT IN YOUR ACTIONS, LESS WORDS, AND EYE OPENING CLUES, 

SADDENED BY OUR DEPARTURE WHEN EVERY MOMENT WAS SOMETHING ANEW, 

ALL THESE DAYS ARE NOW UGLY, AND I STRUGGLE TO SEE BEAUTIFUL, 

I LOST MY IDENTITY AND DIDN’T CARE OR WORRY MUCH, 

THE MOMENT YOU ENTERED MY SPACE I ONLY CARED FOR YOUR KISS AND TOUCH, 

ENOUGH! 

MY BREATHING IS BECOMING UNBEARABLE, 

ALL THAT I CRAVED NOW LEAVES ME IN NEED OF REHAB AND MISERABLE, 

I AM LEFT HERE TO DO THIS ALONE, 

HERE I AM STARING AT THE COLD WHITE WALLS OF MY HOME, 

GRIEVING.

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