“AM I HURTING YOU?”

I NEVER THOUGHT I’D SEE THE DAY, 

IT IS ALL SO EVER VIVID TO ME, 

 UPON LOOKING BACK ON LIFE – NOW I SEE THINGS SO CLEARLY,

DISAPPOINTING YOU INEVITABLY, 

HURTING YOU WAS NEVER A PURPOSEFUL ACTION DONE BY ME, 

AND ALL THE THINGS I’VE EVER DONE WRONG, SEEN WRONG, SAID WRONG, SUM UP TO BE ,

WRONGFULLY, 

I DIDN’T EVER SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF THINGS NOW I THINK ABOUT THEM SO REMORSEFULLY, 

THE IMPACT OF THE ISSUES I SEE WRONG IN HER, IN I, IN RELATIONSHIPS, IN MY FAMILY, 

THE ANGER AND DISAPPOINTMENT THAT RESONATE THROUGHOUT MY HEART DAILY, 

THE HURT I FEEL WHEN MY LITTLE GIRL DOESN’T SPEAK OR SAY HI TO ME, 

I NEVER REALIZED FOR ONE MOMENT ALL THE MESSAGES YOU WERE SENDING TO ME, 

IGNORANTLY, 

NOW MY EYES ARE OPEN AND IT IS ALL PRESENT – EVIDENTLY, 

THE WAY I’VE TREATED YOU I CAN ONLY ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE ME, 

REPEATEDLY, 

REPEATEDLY, 

I AM SORRY, 

SO VERY SORRY, 

I SEE THINGS ALL SO VERY CLEARLY, 

IT’S ALL SO VERY CLEAR PLEASE BELIEVE, 

I NOW UNDERSTAND WHY I’VE HURT FOR SO MANY YEARS AND BEEN INCOMPLETE, 

ALL THIS TIME YOU’VE BEEN REACHING OUT TO ME, 

I’VE BEEN SO SELFISH AND KEPT MY HANDS IN MY OWN POCKETS RELUCTANT TO REACH, 

BUT NOW I SEE,

YOUR MESSAGE SO CLEARLY, 

ALL THIS TIME THAT I WAS HURTING, I WAS ACTUALLY HURTING YOU AND IN TURN YOU’VE BEEN SHOWING ME HOW ITS FELT TO BE REJECTED CONSTANTLY, 

I AM SO VERY SORRY, 

PLEASE BELIEVE.

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