“DESPERATE PLEAS”

IF YOU KNOW ME THEN YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU NEED IT I WILL GLADLY GIVE,

THE ONLY EXCEPTION IS UNLESS IT COMES TO MY KIDS,

SEE THIS CHRISTMAS WON’T BE A CHRISTMAS BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE,

ALL MY IDEAS, MY HUSTLING, LEAVES ME WITH JUST THIS FREE AIR I HAVE TO LIVE,

UNGRATEFUL FOR IT I AM NOT I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS,

LIFE IS ALWAYS WORTH LIVING EVEN IF I DON’T HAVE MUCH THIS TEMPORARY SITUATION I WILL OUTLIVE,

I JUST HOPE I AM NOT BEING PUNISHED FOR SOMETHING I KNOWINGLY OR UNKNOWINGLY DID,

AND IF THIS IS THE CASE ON MY KNEES I PRAY AND ASK THAT YOU FORGIVE,

I KNOW I CANNOT REWIND THE HANDS OF TIME  AND CORRECT ERRORS I THOUGHT I HID,

AS A YOUNGSTER I HAD NO IDEA THE TREASURES I HAD AS A KID,

EVERY MOMENT I AM ALONE I GET A CHANCE TO REMINISCE AND RELIVE,

WAITING FOR THEM TO INVENT THE TIME MACHINE SO I CAN PUT IN MY BID,

THE INDEPENDENCE OF MAN, BUT I LOVE FACT I TRADED IT IN TO BE A FATHER WHILE I PUT TOGETHER THIS CRIB,

WONDERING IF MY FATHER AND HIS FATHER FELT THE SAME WAYS I DID,

RANDOM THOUGHTS I HAVE  WHILE AMONGST THIS MADNESS… EXCUSE ME I MEANT AMID,

THOUGHTS TO END MY LIFE I KEEP AT BAY AND DEFTLY FORBID,

TO NOT BE HERE FOR MY FAMILY, FOR MY SIBLINGS TO PROTECT HELP AND GUIDE THEM WOULD BE GREEDY, SELFISH HOW COULD I EVER SHORT THEM AND MISGIVE……….

GIVING UP IS NEVER AN OPTION EVEN IF I HAVE TO SCRATCH, CLAW, FIGHT, AND KICK.

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