“MY EYES”

MY EYES TELL A STORY IF YOU LOOK IT’S SIMPLE AND PLAIN,

THE WAY THEY CHANGE COLORS FROM DARK TO LIGHT TO MASK THE PAIN,

TO SEE THE GLORY IN ALL THAT I HAVE GAINED,

ONLY TO RETURN TO THE BEGINNING….ONCE AGAIN,

CONSTANTLY I HURT OVER WHAT I BELIEVED HAD CHANGED,

FOR BETTER OR WORSE, SUNSHINE OR RAIN,

FOR YEARS I IGNORED THAT MY HEART HAD BEEN SLAIN,

TO NOT HAVE THE SAME FAIRNESS, CONSIDERATION, AND LOVE RECIPROCATED…..I WON’T SAY ANY NAMES,

SIMPLY TO GRAB SOMETHING THAT YOU NEVER EVEN ATTAINED,

THE THOUGHTS OF SELFISHNESS OF ONE WHO ONLY SEEKS TO RISE ABOVE ALL AND REIGN,

ON MY BACK, ON MY SHOULDERS I FEEL THE STRAIN,

PERFECTION AND I DON’T WALK THE SAME,

WHEN I GAVE YOU MY ALL FROM IT YOU CHOSE TO REFRAIN,

AND NOW WHEN THE SHOE IS ON THE OTHER FOOT YOU WANT ME TO BE HERE FOR YOU, IGNORE YOUR ACTIONS, AND HELP YOU SUSTAIN?

I HAVE FORGIVEN YOU FOR YOUR PAST MISTAKES, AND LACK OF GOOD JUDGEMENT – CAN YOU SAY THE SAME?

THROUGH YOUR ACTIONS YOU’VE SHOWN ME THAT YOU HAVEN’T MOVED ONE INCH FROM WHERE WE CAME,

MY ENTIRE BODY HURTS, EVERY INCH OF MY ENTIRE FRAME,

NOT TO MENTION ALL THIS THINKING LEADS TO SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND WHAT IT DOES TO MY BRAIN,

I’M SORRY, BUT LOVE ANY LONGER  YOU CANNOT CLAIM, 

AND IF YOU DO THEN IT IS SAD THAT IT IS SOLELY IN VAIN, 

NO ONE ELSE WILL BE THERE TO CARRY THE BLAME, 

ALL THESE FEELINGS OF RAGE AND HURT CAUSED BY ONE WHOM I THOUGHT WAS MY UNCONDITIONAL SUPPORT AND LOVE WITHOUT THE BALL AND CHAIN, 

MY MORALS I HAVE AND WILL ALWAYS RETAIN, 

YOUR NAME I NO LONGER CALL NOR WILL IT BE SPOKEN THE SAME, 

WE GREW UP AND WERE RAISED TOO DIFFERENTLY – COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TERRAIN, 

I’M NOT TAKING SHOTS AT YOU THE MESSAGES ARE NOT DIFFICULT TO ASCERTAIN, 

TO MYSELF I WILL REMAIN, 

INSTEAD OF CONTINUED CONDITIONS THAT ARE JUST INHUMANE, 

WE AREN’T ON THE SAME PAGE AND ARE MANY LEVELS REMOVED FROM THE SAME PLANE, 

ALL THAT I HAVE DONE FOR YOU WAS TAKEN FOR GRANTED AND I CAN SEE IT WAS IN VEIN, 

SAD WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THEY LOVE YOU YET THEY PUT YOU OUT FOR ALL TO VIEW YOU AS A CRIMINAL ON THE PUBLIC DOMAIN, 

QUESTIONS CONSTANTLY ARE ASKED NONE OF WHICH I ENTERTAIN, 

BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT IS SAID THE TRUTH BETWEEN YOU AND I WILL NEVER BE OBTAINED, 

I AM JUST SITTING HER WRITING OUT MY HEART AND FEELINGS, BUT TO HER IT WILL BE ME TALKING SHIT LIKE I COMPLAIN, 

NO WONDER ON MY BED SHEETS THERE ARE TEARS OF BLOOD STAINS, 

I USED TO TREAT OUR ISSUES LIKE AN ANKLE SPRAIN, 

I BELIEVE IN COMMUNICATION, TLC, AND PROPER TIME WOULD HEAL ALL THINGS, 

NEVER WANTED TO BE ANYTHING CLOSE TO WHAT WOULD BRING US ANY FAME, 

JUST NEEDED AND DESIRED TO BE THE GREATEST FATHER, DADDY, HUSBAND, FRIEND, AND NEVER HAVE A JUDGE SAY I’VE BEEN ARRAIGNED, 

THROUGH IT ALL I REMAIN SANE, 

WITH THE GRACE OF GOD AND VALUES THAT HAVE BEEN INGRAINED, 

MY EYES TELL A STORY……..FATHER PLEASE KEEP ME STRONG ENOUGH TO CONTINUE TO MAINTAIN, 

AMEN.

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