“FANTASY”

Most nights I feel like you don’t love me and I am just a distant memory and then you remember me……

And we and us and the possibilities,

Most times spent I feel like we are committing a felony,

Because of the stolen moments in time that aren’t enough often rushed,

To the side emotions felt feelings brushed, and I right now at this very moment miss and need your touch….

As I  blush,

A tear away from my eyes I brush,

Refusing to allow myself to feel the crush,

The rush of hurt and loneliness I feel often and too much,

You asked me if it is you I trust…

When instead I should be asking you……… a cliché of sorts and such,

Pressures building up and about to bust,

I need more than temporary fixes – no more crutch,

To my dreams I still clutch and in the forefront and back of my mind yells a voice of reality that says for the fuck what!!!!!!!!!!??????

She cannot love you when on his dick her lips just suck,

Body motions that swirl and go down and up how can you be a fool to not think these actions aren’t a fact that he gets to fuck that butt…….

I often see the light and though it may be too bright…….

I wanna be happy so I press the release button to free my heart from the visions and awful sites,

The weight of it all unbearable and the cause of my plight,

I just know and knew that I could with you take flight,

Reach newer and unseen heights for you I would fight,

Guarantee for my place you would always trade in any case or cause of life,

The reason I could stand strong and say that’s my wife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know and knew how to breathe into my lungs the constant air of life,

Any tears that fell you were there to always wipe,

There is a soul and a bond that we have that always reunites,

The flames never burn out your presence in my world ignites the fire light,

I just needed to take a moment out tonight,

To say I miss you and appreciate you and all the risks, chances, love, and support throughout all my wrongs and my rights,

You loved me in-spite of and despite…….

I just can’t help most nights……….

I feel like you don’t love me and I am just a distant memory and then you remember me and we and us and the possibilities………
Fantasy.

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