“FORGIVEN”

BEFORE IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE, 

I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE ME FOR ALL THE WRONGS THAT I HAVE DONE, 

FOR THE BABIES THAT DIDN’T COME OUT OF YOUR WOMB – YES MY OTHER DAUGHTER’S AND SON’S, 

PLEASE FIND A WAY TO LOVE THEM AS IF THEY ARE YOURS UNTIL KINGDOM COME, 

I COULDN’T EXPLAIN THE REASONS, 

NOT ONE EXPLANATION,

EXCUSES WILL NEVER HEAL –  NOT A SINGLE FRACTION, 

I’M BETTER THAN NO ONE, 

I JUST WORKED HARD AND GAVE A LITTLE BIT MORE THAN SOME, 

BECAUSE PIECES OF ME THAT I SHARED WERE ENOUGH TO FULFILL THE LIFE AND DREAMS TO DO BETTER UNDER THE SUN, 

NOT TO BE OUTDONE, 

LIFE SPITS US OUT AFTER BEING SPUN, 

IT IS NOT ABOUT THE URGE TO JUST CUM,

ON MY SHOULDERS WEIGHTS OF SEVERAL HUNDRED TONS, 

BATTLING WITH MY HANDS AGAINST KNIVES AND GUNS, 

MY BREATH IS GETTING SHORTER AND I CAN HEAR MY LUNGS,

I KNOW ALL PEOPLE AND ALL THE THINGS I CANNOT OUTRUN, 

YOUR HEART AND SOUL I KNOW I HAVE LEFT JUST STUNNED, 

ALL THE THINGS I PREACHED AND TAUGHT I HOPE YOU DON’T DITCH IN THE LONG RUN, 

MOURNING BEGINS WHEN THE TEARS STOP FLOWING AND YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE THE FOUNDATION, 

MAYBE I WILL COME BACK AS A STRONGER ORGAN FOR YOU – KARMA VS REINCARNATION, 

ALL THE DARK HALLS IN MY HEART AND SOUL WITHOUT ANY SALVATION, 

RELENTLESS CESSATION, 

THE PAIN, MY TEARS, YOUR HEART, THE MANY YEARS STANDING OVATION, 

PROBABLY MAKE IT TO HEAVEN AND BE PLACED ON SEVERE PROBATION, 

WALKING AROUND THIS EARTH CURRENTLY IN EXTREME DEPRESSION,

DAILY PAIN LEADS TO FACIAL AUGMENTATIONS, 

EVERYTHING I DO IS ALMOST IN AUTOMATION, 

DYING SLOW FROM ALL MY SORROWS AND SELF MADE SUFFOCATION, 

I KNOW THIS IS LIKE AN UNKIND AND UNFAIR SELF PROCLAMATION, 

UNDERSTAND I AM NOT A SAINT AND AM NOT ASKING FOR ANY KIND OF NOMINATION, 

A TERRIBLE CONFESSION AND SOUL MASTURBATION, 

THE FEELINGS ARE NOT LIBERATING, THEY ARE NOT FILLED WITH ANY TYPE OF RELAXATION, 

I DIDN’T LIVE UP TO MY OWN EXPECTATIONS, 

IT IS MY FAULT FOR FAILING FOR THEY WERE MY OWN HESITATIONS, 

DON’T KNOW HOW I WILL GO SO THIS IS NO PREMEDITATION, 

IN ANY ESTIMATION, 

A SIMPLE DEFINITION AND IF AT ALL POSSIBLE TREMENDOUS CONSOLATION, 

25 PLUS YEARS OF INTERNAL DEVASTATION, 

THE HEALING I NEED WOULD REQUIRE NEAR DEATH OR DEATH EXPLORATION, 

CRYING TEARS FROM THE HEART NO FABRICATION, 

I AM TRULY HUMAN AND AM SORRY FOR THE EMBARRASSMENT, THE BLAME I PLACED, AND AGGRAVATION, 

MY APOLOGIES AND FOREVER LOVE ALWAYS YOUR NAME DESERVES GLORIFICATION, 

I JUST HOPE I AM FORGIVEN, TOTAL AND COMPLETE EXONERATION.

©2016 paragraphsoflove.com All Rights Reserved.