“FREELY FROM MY EYES”

TO WASH AWAY ONE’S SOUL IN A SHOWER FULL OF TEARS,

TO OPEN UP TO YOU WOULD BE EQUIVALENT TO ME TAKING OFF EVERYTHING IN A CROWDED PLACE AND THERE I STAND BARE WHILE CREATING MY OWN PUDDLE OF TEARS,

WHOMEVER SAID THAT TIME HEALS ALL MUST NOT HAVE EVER BEEN HURT NOR FELT HURTS IMMENSE PAIN,

OR MAYBE I HAVEN’T LIVED LONG ENOUGH TO KNOW HOW MUCH TIME IS TRULY NEEDED TO HEAL AND SO I FEEL AWFULLY CURSED AND SEE NO LET UP FROM THE THUNDEROUS RAIN,

TO MEASURE IT UP LET’S SAY IN MAPS OF ROADS ACROSS THE WORLD AS WE KNOW IT TODAY,

IF YOU TRIED TO TRAVEL THOSE ROADS YOU COULDN’T BECAUSE THE PAIN IS SO LONG AND INTENSE – IT’S LIGHT YEARS AWAY,

WHY SHOULD I CRY TO YOU WHEN I’VE ALREADY BEEN DOWN THAT PATH?

SO WELL HIDDEN INSIDE OF ME THAT EVEN I CAN PASS MY TEARS OFF AS A HARD LAUGH,

AND AT LAST WHEN IT SEEMS I HAVE MET MY OWN FATE,

MAYBE ON THAT DATE THE TEARS WILL BURST THROUGH MY HEART AND BREACH WHAT IS CONCEIVED TO BE THE FLOOD GATES,

TILL THEN I MUST KEEP MY HEELS AND TOES TO THE CONCRETE,

FOR I’VE CRIED SO MUCH PREVIOUSLY THAT I AM NOW BELOW THE LEVEL OF THE SEA,

I AM ABLE TO VIEW ALL THAT IS GOING ON,

I AM WALKING AND NO LONGER RUNNING TOWARDS OPEN ARMS,

WHAT I HAVE SEEKED ALL MY LIFE HAS ONLY ONCE APPEARED,

BELIEVE ME WHEN I TELL YOU I HAVE SEARCHED LONG AND HARD, FAR AND WIDE, LONG AND SHORT, FOR MANY, MANY YEARS,

LACK OF EMOTION SOMETHING I AM NOT OF,

JUST DONT SEE THE SAME PURPOSE I USED TO SEE IN THE BENEFITS OF LOVE,

MORE PAIN GAINED WHEN DISAPPOINTMENT COMES CRASHING DOWN,

AND I’VE ALWAYS FOUND MYSELF LEFT ALONE TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT,

OVER TIME I HAVE LEARNED TO EMBRACE HURT RATHER THAN PUT UP MY WALLS AND CLOSE ALL EXISTING DOORS,

CHOSEN TO WALK THRU HELL TO GAIN STRENGTH, BUT STILL QUESTION WHAT I AM FIGHTING FOR,

WHEN THE HURT IS SO STRONG IT POURS OUT ONTO MY FACE FROM MY INNER VEINS,

SLOWLY LETTING GO OF THE PASSION TO SHOW THIS VARIATION OF LOVE EVER AGAIN,

ON MY SHOULDERS RESTS ALL THE BLAME,

WITH ALL THAT ON MY BODY IT’S NO WONDER WHEN MY EYES CLOSE ON MY HEART REMAINS THE BLOOD STAINS.

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