“HAVE YOU EVER BEEN AS SAD AS I AM?”

DOWN AND COUNTED OUT,

STRIPPED ME OF MY HAPPINESS AND RESPECTED CLOUT,

TOLD ME I WAS NOTHING AND SHOWED ME WITH ACTIONS WHAT IT’S ALL ABOUT,

SNATCHED MY HEART FROM ME AND TOLD ME TO LIVE WITHOUT,

 PUT TAPE OVER MY MOUTH, 

KEPT ME SILENT SO NO ONE WOULD HEAR MY SCREAMS AND SHOUTS, 

KEPT TABS ON ME AT EVERY CORNER THERE ARE LOOKOUTS, 

BEEN WITH ME SINCE BIRTH THEY SENT A CREW OF SCOUTS, 

FOLLOWED ME THROUGH MY GROWTH SPURTS – THEY WATCHED ME SPROUT, 

DURING MY DAYS OF THIRST THEY ENSURE THERE WAS ENORMOUS DROUGHT, 

KNOWING THERE WERE MANY ROADS THEY ONLY GAVE ME ONE SINGLE ROUTE, 

SOMEHOW I CAN’T GET OUT,

I MUST FIND A WAY OUT, 

PUT ME DOWN WITH HARSH WORDS THAT CREATED THE ONSET OF DEPRESSION AND DOUBT, 

IN FRONT OF ME MY FREEDOM THEY WOULD TOUT, 

MADE IT TO COLLEGE AND ALMOST DROPPED OUT, 

MADE MISTAKES AND THEY TRIED TO TAKE ME OUT, 

WHEN YOU GO UP AGAINST LOVE YOU WILL FACE A BLOW OUT, 

THE CONSEQUENCES AND REPERCUSSIONS ARE ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU CONSTANTLY FALL OUT,

ASKED FOR SUPPORT AND THERE WAS NO TURNOUT,

TARNISHED MY NAME, ON ME PLACED ALL THE BLAME, THEREFORE NO ONE WOULD TURN OUT,

ALWAYS HOPED AND PRAYED IT WOULD WORKOUT,

EVERYDAY I TRY AND DO ONLY TO STRIKEOUT,

GAVE ME A GUN AND SAID PUT IT TO MY HEAD SO THEY COULD SEE MY PHYSICAL END AND WATCH MY BRAINS BE BLOWN OUT,

 MY LIFE HAS BEEN AND STILL IS A HELL OF A FIGHT OF KNOCKOUTS, 

EVERYDAY I CRAWL MY WAY BACK TO MY HIDEOUT, 

REGRETTING THE DAYS THAT I DIDN’T PULLOUT, 

THEY HAVE THE SAME TABS ON MY KIDS LIVES AND WILL THROUGHOUT, 

HOOVES AND CLAWS DEEP IN THEIR GRASPS I KEEP TELLING MY KIDS NOT TO SELLOUT, 

TO YOURSELVES AND EACH OTHER STAY DEVOUT, 

IN CASE YOU EVER WONDERED HOW THIS ALL CAME ABOUT, 

THE PAIN, THE HURT, THEY NEVER STOP OR PHASE OUT, 

AT NIGHT WHEN I AM ALONE I AWAKE SCREAMING THE QUESTION REPEATEDLY WITH COTTONMOUTH – 

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN AS SAD AS I AM!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?

MY SPIRIT AND SOUL ARE BOTH DOWN SOUTH. 

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