“HEALING”

I WASN’T SURE IF I EVER COULD OR IF I’D EVER BE HERE, 

A LONG LONELY ROAD FOR CERTAIN KEPT ME LOCKED DOWN AND SCARED, 

WAS IT THE FACT OF GETTING OVER YOU OR MORE SO THE FEAR, 

KNOWING YOU’D NEVER COME CALLING FOR ME EVER AGAIN, THE FACT THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE, 

WOULD BE NO LONGER THERE, 

I GUESS WHEN IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE THE CHOICE AND LACK THEREOF OF ACTIONS MADE IT ALL CLEAR, 

WHAT WAS BEFORE, IS NOW AFTER, WHICH BECOMES MEMORIES OF HOW AND WHERE, 

AT TIMES I STILL CARRY MANY DISTANT STARES, 

ALWAYS WAS TOLD LIFE WASN’T ALWAYS GOING TO BE FAIR, 

I CAN NOW MISS YOUR LAUGH, YOUR SMILE, YOUR TOUCH, YOUR HAIR, 

I UNDERSTAND IT’S EASIER TO LET GO THAN TO STAY WITH ME WHILE MY SOUL I BARE, 

SIMPLY GAVE MY ALL AND THEN SOME….. DEVOTED TO YOU I GAVE MY ALL AND MY ALL I SHARED, 

YOU LEFT WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE- AS IF YOU DIDN’T CARE, 

SO THIS PROCESS IS LITTLE BY LITTLE WELCOMED BUT MOSTLY ANGER – WE ARE NO LONGER A PAIR, 

NO MORE LOVE IN THE AIR, 

NO MORE LONG NIGHTS TOGETHER WE WILL SHARE, 

LOVE CAN BE THE GREATEST THING WHEN NURTURED…… BUT WHEN WE MISUSE IT WE ARE QUICK TO CALL IT UNFAIR, 

A WAR ON LOVE WE ARE FAST TO DECLARE, 

I JUST NEED TIME TO ALLOW ALL THINGS WITH YOU I ONCE CHERISHED TO DIE SO FORGIVE ME FOR MY LOUD PRAYERS, 

I DO REALIZE THAT COULD BE A LIFE LONG SENTENCE, BUT LOVE KNOWS I AM PREPARED, 

I AM LOOKING UP NOW AT WHAT SEEMS TO BE A BILLION STAIRS, 

I’VE BEEN FORCED TO START THIS JOURNEY UP SO I AM HOPEFUL FOR LIFE LONG LASTING REPAIRS, 

ALONG THE WAY I HAVE LEARNED AND KNOW NOT TO EVER COMPARE, 

WHAT’S MINE IS MINE, WHAT’S THEIRS IS THEIRS, 

SOMETHING LOVE ALWAYS MADE ME REALIZE SO OF IT I AM AWARE, 

LOVE LIKE THIS…..TO THIS MAGNITUDE IS SO RARE, 

I FEEL THE NEED AT TIMES TO RUN BACK, BUT I KNOW LOVE WILL NOT BE THERE, 

I AM WEARY OF MY STRENGTH FOR THIS…. I AM GROWING FULL OF DESPAIR, 

I TOLD HER I LOVE HER, I SHOWED HER I LOVE HER, WHY COULDN’T SHE HEAR?

WHY DID MY CRIES FOR HER LOVE FALL ON DEAF EARS?

AND I CRIED MANY, MANY, MANY TEARS,

PLACED THEM IN AN ENVELOPE, PLACED THEM IN A HUGE BOX ON TOP OF MY HEART, AND LABELED IT TO MY ONE AND ONLY,

MY SOLITAIRE…..

LOVE.

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