“IMPERFECT”

I HATE THAT I MISS YOU,

I MISS YOU SO,

I HATE THAT YOU LEFT,

WHY I ASKED YOU TO LEAVE ONLY LORD KNOWS,

INTERNALLY I DON’T WANT YOU TO LEAVE WHEN I ASK YOU TO GO,

I HATE THAT I DON’T SEE YOU WITHOUT TOMORROW,

I HATE THE LIES AND LIFE THAT WE SEEMINGLY DON’T HAVE,

I HATE THE FACT YOU DON’T LOVE ME THE WAY I LOVE YOU AND IT MAKES ME MAD,

I HATE THAT I DON’T KNOW HOW TO PLACE ANYONE ABOVE YOU IT ALL MAKES ME SAD,

I HATE THAT YOU AREN’T HERE WITH  ME LIKE A CHILD MISSING A MOTHER OR A MISSING DAD,

I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU,

SOMETHING YOU ALREADY KNEW,

IF YOU NEVER EXISTED I HATE THAT THERE’D BE NO ONE TO RUN TO,

I HATE THAT I SIMPLY DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO,

I HATE THE POSSIBILITY OF HAVING TO CARRY ON,

I HATE THAT YOU CHOOSE TO STAY AWAY FROM ME FOR SO VERY LONG,

I HATE THE VERY FACT THAT YOU ARE GONE,

I HATE THAT I HAVE TO BEG FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS THROUGH PRAYERS AND TO THIS DIRT BECAUSE YOU ARE GONE,

I HATE THAT I CANNOT REMEMBER YOUR TOUCH – YES IT HAS BEEN SO VERY LONG,

I HATE THAT MY WILL AND MY WANTS ARE NO LONGER STRONG,

I WISH FOR THE DAY THAT I CAN REMOVE THE HATE,

THERE IS A GLARING REASON IN MY HEART THAT I AM SO ANGRY – PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN,

FOR THIS AWFUL HURT TO STOP SHOWING UP ON MY FACE AND BE DISPLAYED,

THEY WOULD NEED TO BRING YOU BACK TO ME, BACK TO LIFE, AND ASSURE ME YOU’D NEVER GO AWAY,

I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF EVERY SINGLE DAY,

MY IMPERFECTIONS ARE NOW GLARING, 

MY EMOTIONS ARE STILL GROWING STRONG AND THEY STILL STAY, 

LIFE MAY BE IMPERFECT, BUT FOR ME YOU WERE PERFECT EVERY SINGLE DAY, 

SO NOW YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE AMASSED SO MUCH HATE.

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