“LOOKING AT HIM”

BATTERED AND BRUISED,

USED AND ABUSED,

NOT EXACTLY WHAT I CHOSE, BUT LESSONS FORCE YOU TO LEARN THROUGH PATHS YOU CHOOSE,

TO SEE YOU DOWN, HURT, AND BROKEN LEAVES SOME AMUSED,

TOOK LIFE OFF OF AUTO MODE, DRIVING MANUAL, AND COMPLETELY DISABLED CRUISE,

MY EYES ARE LIGHT BROWN HIDDEN BY DARK EYE LASHES TO COVER AND PROTECT THE COLORFUL HUES,

BEEN CRYING SO MUCH I LOSE VISION SOMETIMES ON WHAT TO DO,

DON’T TAKE A BITE OUT MY HEART IF YOU FIND THIS TOO MUCH TO CHEW,

MY OPEN DIARY ISN’T ALL ABOUT GLORY, I HAVE A LOT OF FRUSTRATIONS TOO,

FLIP THE PAGES YOU’LL SEE CHAPTERS OF GOOD DAYS AND TERRIBLE ONES – NOTHING NEW,

SEEKING SHELTER FROM FUTURE DAYS OF HELL THAT MAY STILL BE IN QUEUE,

TO LOVE CLOSER I DREW,

BUT OF MY PAIN ONLY GOT A BETTER VIEW,

IN ART FORM I WRITE SO YOU CAN GET AN UNDERSTANDING OF THE PICTURE AND DIFFERENT COLOR BLUES,

ALSO A MAP SO OTHERS DON’T HAVE TO WALK DOWN THIS AVENUE,

I THINK OF YOU OFTEN THOUGH, I TRULY DO,

THE CLOSENESS WE HAD…NOW GONE, AND FOR IT I AM SEVERELY PAYING DUES, 

EXTRA, EXTRA, YOU CAN READ ALL ABOUT IT OR SEE IT ON THE NEWS, 

MISSING MY DAYS CARE FREE AS A YOUTH, BUT I LOVE THE INDEPENDENCE – DUCK DUCK GOOSE, 

TIME FLIES BY, ONE MINUTE YOU’RE HERE AND THE NEXT POOF, 

STILL SIFTING THROUGH THE RUBBLE TO FIND PIECES OF THE PUZZLE LOST IN ME AND WHO’S WHO, 

I WALKED BY A BROKEN MIRROR AND CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF YOU, 

THOUGHT IT WOULD HELP, BUT IT LEFT ME WITH MORE TATTOOS, 

A RAGE ENSUED, 

MY HEART PLED WITH MY MIND TO TRY AND DEFUSE, 

MANY YEARS MANY TIMES I TRIED TO OVER COME THESE ISSUES, 

LOVE OH LOVE YOU HAVE LEFT ME SO HURT AND SO CONFUSED, 

I ALWAYS TAKE THE BLAME, I ALWAYS STAND ACCUSED, 

NOW I REFUSE, 

I CAN SEE YOU, 

THOSE EYES OF MINE CAN CRY NO MORE – I REFUSE, 

MOVING SLOWLY AWAY FROM THE MIRROR THE END OF THE INTERVIEW, 

WHILE I WAS LOOKING AT HER, 

HE WAS LOOKING BACK AT YOU.

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