“LOVE PURGATORY”

I AM TRAPPED IN A PLACE WITH GLASS CEILINGS AND GLASS WALLS,

THE TOP IS BARELY OUT OF REACH, BUT I AM JUST NOT THAT TALL,

IN A CROWDED WORLD AND I STILL FEEL IT IS SO SMALL,

INTO THE DARKNESS WITH NO RETURN AT TIMES I FEEL I SHOULD CRAWL,

ALL MY LIFE FOR YOU I DID FALL,

A TESTAMENT OF MY LIFE WRITTEN ALL OVER MY BEDROOM WALLS,

IN MY SLEEP YOUR NAME I HAVE YELLED OUT AND SILENTLY WHEN I WALK – YOUR NAME I STILL CALL,

SOMETIMES I NEED HELP FEELING MY WAY THROUGH THE DEPTHS OF IT ALL,

I TRY TO STAND UP AND BE STRONG WHEN I WALK DOWN MEMORIES HALL,

 BUT THE THIEVERY OF MEMORIES BEAT ME DOWN AND RELENTLESSLY MAUL, 

DEAD IN THE STREETS WITH MY BUSINESS SPRAWLED, 

NOW MY NAME ON YOUR LIPS AND IN YOUR HEARTS WILL BECOME BLACK BALLED, 

A TRIP THROUGH MY MENTAL NERVE ENDINGS WILL BE THE KEY TO MY DOWNFALL, 

THE MERE GLIMPSE OF THE JOURNEY WILL SURELY ENTHRALL, 

FOLLOWED YOUR EVERY STEP, HINT, CLUE, AND PROTOCOL,

AT TIMES LEFT DEVASTATED, ALONE, SO APPALLED, 

CONTROL, ALT, DELETE DIDN’T WORK SO INSTEAD MANY TIMES I SIMPLY HAD TO REINSTALL, 

TO CONTINUE WITHIN THESE WALLS I DON’T BELIEVE I CAN CONTINUE, I DON’T HAVE THE WHEREWITHAL, 

THE DEPRESSION HAS LEAD ME TO SEVERE ABUSE OF ALCOHOL, 

WHILE LIVING HERE IN YOUR CARE SO MANY OTHER THINGS I HAVE BECOME DESPITE YOUR PROMISES TO NEVER ALLOW OF ME TO BEFALL,

AND WITH YOU IN LOVE I STILL FALL,

TO YOU I STILL GIVE MY ALL,

………………….LIFE BEHIND LOVES PURGATORY WALLS. 

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