“MEET THE KIDS”

TOOK SOME TIME OFF AND SPENT THE DAY WITH THE KIDS, 

TOLD THEM I’D TAKE THEM TO A SPECIAL PLACE I KNOW OVER SOME HILLS AND OVER A BRIDGE, 

PROMISED THEM A GREAT TIME BECAUSE I KNOW FOR ME A GREAT TIME I HAD  – EVERY TIME I CAME I DID, 

THEN I RECEIVED A PHONE CALL WHILE WE ATE LUNCH AND ENJOYED SOME FISH, 

THE WISHING WELL LADY CALLED AND SIMPLY CRUSHED MY SPIRITS,

SHE CAME TO SOME ASSUMPTIONS AND THINGS SHE HAD COME TO TRULY BELIEVE IN SO SHE SAID, 

SHE WAS NO LONGER AWAITING MY ARRIVAL AND FROM THAT ALL WAS DEAD, 

SADLY THIS MEANT NO WISHING WELL JOURNEY, AND SHE WOULDN’T EVER GET TO MEET THE KIDS, 

HAD TO FIGHT THROUGH THE ANGER, THE HEARTACHE, HAD TO WITHHOLD THE MESSAGE, 

SHOWED THEM OTHER THINGS, BUT THE SURPRISE I PLANNED I HID, 

MAYBE A BLESSING IN DISGUISE, BUT SHE KNOWS WHO SHE IS, 

UN-EXPLAINABLE FEELINGS WHEN SOMEONE BELIEVES IN THINGS AND THEIR STRENGTH IN YOU THEY COME TO FORBID, 

GIVING WAY TO THEIR OWN UNDERSTANDINGS WHEN ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS ASK QUESTIONS – SURELY SHE’LL RESPOND AND SAY “I THOUGHT I DID”, 

HOWEVER THINKING IS NOT AN ACTUALITY ITS YOUR REALITY IN WHICH YOU LIVE, 

I KNEW HOW MANY GUYS WERE CHASING YOU THEY WERE ALL PUTTING IN THEIR BIDS, 

IN THE END YOU CALLED ME NAMES SAID I WAS A JOKE AND TWO FACEDED, 

I TOOK THE LONG RIDE HOME QUIETLY WHILE MY GIRLS SLEPT TEARS DOWN MY FACE  – YES THEY ALL QUICKLY SLID, 

AGAIN WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS THE LEVEL TO WHICH I AM FRUSTRATED, 

THIS IS NOT WHAT LOVE IS , THIS IS NOT WHAT LOVE IS, THIS IS NOT WHAT LOVE IS!

NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED, NOR WHAT I DID GIVE, 

NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO ENDURE SUCH HURT AND WORDS THAT CUT WITH COMMAS IN THEIR SENTENCES,

SO GRATEFUL FOR LIFE, THANKFUL FOR THE JOYS IN THE BACK SEAT THAT STILL LIVE, 

SO MY GOAL WILL SOLELY BE ON WHAT EVIDENTLY I SHOULD HAVE FOCUSED AND CONCENTRATED, 

I THOUGHT YOUR LOVE WAS UNDERSTANDING, YOUR LOVE WAS KIND, I BELIEVED IT WAS SO PATIENT, 

INSTEAD OF ALLOWING ME TO GIVE YOU ADOPTED A THIEVES CHARACTERISTICS, 

I KNOW NOW THE REAL YOU DIDN’T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING, BUT YOUR OWN NEEDS AND GRIEVANCES, 

SOME VERY WELL KNOWN AND OTHERS SELF-INFLICTED, 

LIKE MY HEART I WANT TO BURN ALL THE MEMORIES AND LEAVE THEM AND ASSURE THEY ARE ASHES BECAUSE YOU ARE THE IGNITION THAT CAUSED THEM TO BE LIT, 

LOOKING IN MY REAR VIEW MIRROR I CAN SEE THE THICK SMOKE BILLOWING I KNOW I AM SO FAR FROM PERFECT, BUT REMAIN CONFIDENT, 

I CAN’T HELP KNOWING THAT SOMEDAY I’LL AGAIN CROSS THAT BRIDGE, 

BUT KNOWING WHAT I KNOW NOW I AM SO THANKFUL THAT YOU DIDN’T GET TO MEET THE KIDS. 

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