“She still belongs to someone else”

Won’t matter how hard I try,

She will always belong to that other lucky guy,

Wrote about her when I said you can see it in my eyes,

Told you about her when I shared girl of my dreams when the rain was falling from the sky,

Truthfully it was my tears in disguise,

So angry at myself – to only myself I lied,

All the emotions I now have to hide,

No longer holding on to any ounce of my pride,

All the while my heart with the floor just collides,

Each day that passes is another day I falter inside,

Each moment without her here I feel is another moment that I die, 

I wonder every moment if for me a thought crosses her heart or mind?

I wonder if a tear falls or if she uncontrollably cries?

Does she miss me? Is she looking for me? Or is it all in my mind?

Maybe it is all just simply a matter of time……..

The many hopes and dreams I shared with her I now remember alone no more joy-ride,

Just a distant memory now in the corner of our lives, 

A place I still go, I often go, and no one knows, because it is still in the front of my mind, 

Time doesn’t stand still and time doesn’t mend scars that seemingly find a way to survive, 

At least in my life it finds a way to stay alive, 

Hard for me to surmise, 

I’m like a deer in head lights when I see her passing by, 

Car crashing into me is how I feel when I see she oh what a surprise,

Blinded sided unexpectedly by her sight, 

She doesn’t notice me, which is good cause I can slip away undetected into the darkness of the night, 

I’m happy to see her right, I mean her plight, you know…. her flight, 

She still belongs to someone else and I am happy to see that she is happy and in love  as she embraces him so tight, 

So deserving is she to be treated lovingly, what a shame she is not my……….

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