“SPECTRUM”

OUT OF CONTACT AND CLEARLY OUT OF RANGE,
NO CELL PHONE TOWERS OR  SATELLITE CAN REACH MY EXCHANGE,

I KNOW YOU’RE LOST – YOU KNOW MY PLANE,
I’M SO SORRY I WROTE THIS ON SAND – AS IT WILL SOON BE WASHED AWAY BY RAIN,

I’M ON A JOURNEY, YES I KNOW ALONE ONCE AGAIN,
GIVE ME A MOMENT LET ME FULLY EXPLAIN,

SICK OF LET DOWNS, TIRED OF EMOTIONS I AM UNABLE TO ABSTAIN,
AND EVERYWHERE I GO PEOPLE LOOK AT ME AS IF THE SCARLET LETTER I CONTAIN,

VAST DISCOLORATIONS IN MY SPECTRUM SO DEFINITION I AM OUT TO ATTAIN,
DON’T EVEN ATTEMPT TO BELITTLE ME JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE UNABLE TO ASCERTAIN,

VISIONS, EMOTIONS, CONSTANT FRUSTRATION SEEN THROUGH MY WINDOW PANE,
SIMPLE REASONING YOU CANNOT OBTAIN!!!

THIS LIFE I HAVE IS RIDDLED WITH MUCH TO OFFER, YET LITTLE TO GAIN,
STEADY WASHING MY HANDS TRYING TO REMOVE THE BLOTCHES OF LIFE’S STAINS,

 MRI’S AND MRA’S ADMINISTERED TO MEASURE THE ACTIVITY IN MY BRAIN,
THE DOCTORS AND NEUROLOGISTS ARE HAVING A MEETING DISSECTING EACH MEMBRANE, 

STEP ON UP TO THE NEXT LEVEL WITH MORE LOSSES THAN WINS I CAN CLAIM,
DESPITE THE FORTITUDE AND RELENTLESS ETHICS INSTILLED IN ME FAILURE HAS NOT CAPTURED MY SOUL TO ME IT IS ALL STRANGE, 

SOMETHINGS IN MY LIFE I’D LIKE TO REARRANGE, 
TAKE OUT THIS THROBBING THAT LEADS TO SOBBING – I AM DESCRIBING TO YOU MY PAIN, 

IF YOU EVER FIND ME DEAD AND MY EYES STILL REMAIN, 
THAT MEANS MY SOUL IS STILL INTACT BUT OF COURSE LIFE IS STILL REMOVED FROM MY FRAME, 

DON’T TRY TO HIDE MY TROUBLES  – I WON’T LIE TO SIMPLY SUSTAIN, 
LOVE IS IN MY SPECTRUM NOT COLORS, BUT EMOTIONS THAT CONSTANTLY FALL INTO MY LANE, 

I’VE FOUGHT FOR EVERY MOMENT, EVERY HOUR, EVERY SECOND, I’VE FOUGHT FOR EVERY GRAIN, 
I HAVE GROWN SO TIRED OF THIS YEARNING AND NEED THAT CONSTANTLY FLOWS THROUGH MY VEINS, 

DON’T DESIRE TO LEAD YOUR LIFE – I HAVE NO DESIRE TO RULE YOUR DOMAIN, 
WHY WOULD I WHEN I AM FIGHTING MY OWN BATTLES AND TRYING TO FREE MYSELF FROM MY OWN CHAINS?

THESE MEMORIES I HAVE THEY FOLLOW ME THROUGH LIFE –  I WALK BAREFOOT ON THAT TERRAIN, 
IT’S BEEN MUDDY, IT’S BEEN SOGGY, IT’S BEEN COLD, IT’S BEEN HOT, BUT IT’S MY FAULT SO I WON’T COMPLAIN, 

I AM MY OWN COUNSELOR BECAUSE SHARING IS DETRIMENTAL SO FROM IT I REFRAIN,
TO GIVE SUCH INFORMATION OUT WOULD BE DEEMED AS INSANE, 

SO MUCH WEIGHT ON MY BODY THAT EACH STEP I TAKE IT DRAINS, 
IF I DON’T CONTINUE ON THIS JOURNEY MY DESTINY AND LIFE WILL SIMPLY BE IN VAIN, 

THE SPECTRUM HAS MANY LEVELS SEEMS AS IF ON ME IT IS A LIFELONG STRAIN, 
I DON’T STOP FOR BREAKS, ACHES, OR INJURIES FOR SO MANY THINGS I’VE ALREADY SPRAINED, 

ONCE I HAVE REACHED MY GOAL – I KNOW THAT I WON’T RESTRAIN, 
JUST KNOW NOW THAT MY LOVE WILL LAST FOREVER AND FOREVER IT WILL REIGN, 

I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS, AND THE DRIVE INSIDE KEEPS ME FOCUSED AND FROM ALL ELEMENTS I AM ABLE TO ABSTAIN, 
I STARTED FROM THE BOTTOM AND RISEN HUMBLY FROM ALL OF WHICH I’VE CAME, 

I’VE STUMBLED OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, 
SO I KNOW THE VALUE OF THE STEPS I HAVE TAKEN AND IN MY MEMORY THEY ARE ALWAYS RETAINED,

I PRAY CONSTANTLY THAT I AM NOT HELD BACK BY HUMAN HANDS – VIOLENTLY DETAINED, 
I HAVE SO MUCH TO ACCOMPLISH WON’T YOU SUPPORT ME PLEASE ON MY LIFE LONG CAMPAIGN?

WON’T YOU SHOW ME ACTIONABLE LOVE WITH FREE REIN?
AM I REQUESTING TOO MUCH OF SOMETHING THAT IS NO LONGER HUMANE?

ON THE QUEST TO KISS THE SWEET LIPS OF LOVE FROM THE TONGUE OF MY NATIVE SUGAR CANE, 
WITH A SOUL AND SPIRIT FILLED WITH SOUTHERN LOVE LIKE LADY MADELEINE, 

WITH A LOYALTY AND SELFLESSNESS THAT SHE REFUSES TO BE NAMED, 
UPON ME SHE WILL LIFT ALL MY TROUBLES, ALL MY HURT, AND TAKE AWAY ALL MY BLAME, 

TO HOLD MY HEAD TO HIGHER STANDARDS FROM WHICH I WAS ORIGINALLY BORN AND DIDN’T WITHSTAND, HOLD…..SOMETHING ELSE I BECAME,
TO BE THE STRONGEST LINK IN MY OWN LIFE’S LINE CHAIN,

WELCOME TO MY DAILY RAIN – SPECTRUM.

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