“I STILL HEAR HIM SCREAMING”

IN MY MIND AND IN MY HEAD,

THE VOICES, THE HURT, BACK DOWN MEMORY LANE HEAD,

WITH HIS HEART IN HIS HAND GUILTY IS WHAT HE PLEAD,

HE WAS SENT BACK TO EARTH TO LIVE OUT HIS LIFE SENTENCE UNTIL DEAD,

NO ONE EVER QUESTION HIS LOVING WAYS, BUT INSTEAD,

WOULD GIVE YOU HIS LAST PIECE AND ENSURE YOU WERE ALWAYS FED, 

SOMETIMES MISQUOTED, MISUNDERSTOOD, AND MORE OFTEN MISREAD, 

LEADER HE WAS TAUGHT TO BE SO OF COURSE HE LED, 

MADE SOME MISTAKES ALONG THE WAY SO IN LIFE HE ALWAYS FELT HE TREAD, 

EVERY SINGLE SYLLABLE OF EVERY SINGLE WORD THAT HE SAID, 

WOULD SOMETIMES BE THROWN BACK IN HIS FACE SO OFTEN HE FLED, 

LEFT AND DISAPPEARED ONLY TO COME BACK TO THE SAME FEELINGS – MORE TEARS WERE SHED, 

SOME DAYS HE JUST WISH IT WAS ALL OVER, HE WISHED HE WERE DEAD, 

BLESSINGS RAINED ON HIM AND THROUGH LIFE HE CONTINUED AHEAD, 

WAS SENT HIS TRUE LOVE AND ONE DAY THEY DID WED,

THROUGH ALL THE PAIN, THROUGH ALL THE HAPPINESS HIS WINGS FINALLY SPREAD, 

ANGELS WERE SENT DOWN IN THE FORM OF KIDS, 

THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HIS LOVE AND PAIN BECAUSE THEY GO HAND AND HAND AND ARE WIDE SPREAD, 

SO MANY TEARS THAT I HAVE SHED THAT THEY ARE NO LONGER WATER SO WHEN I SAY I CRIED – IT MEANS I REALLY BLED, 

MY TEARS COME OUT IN RED, 

OFTEN TIMES I FEEL THAT I HAVE BEEN MISLED, 

SOMETIMES WORDS CAN BE SAID – UNSAID, 

SOMETIMES MY EMOTIONS, MY EYES I WISH SO BADLY COULD GO UNREAD, 

BECAUSE ULTIMATELY WHEN HE IS ALONE, WHICH IS A LOT, HE HEARS THOSE HORRIBLE VOICES, 

I STILL HEAR HIM SCREAMING AND CRYING AND FIND MYSELF ASKING HIM TO STOP – PLEASE STOP I BEG, 

FEELINGS THAT ARE INTERNALLY HONED – THEY’RE HOME BRED, 

NOW EXTERNALLY KNOWN AS I’VE BEEN OUSTED, 

I STILL HEAR HIM SCREAMING AND DAILY MY SOUL SHREDS.

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