LOOK AT HOW IT BEGAN,
INNOCENCE,
FREE,
LOVE WAS TRUE, WHOLESOME, FAIR, SIMPLY AMAZIN’
I CAN REMEMBER WAY BACK WHEN, I COULD SIMPLY TASTE YOUR SCENT IN THE BLOWING OF THE WIND,
CLOSE MY EYES AND BREATH IN,
ALL THE AIR THAT FILLS MY BODY IS THE LIFE YOU HAD GIVEN,
THE UPS AND DOWNS WERE NORMAL, BUT THE EXTREMES WEREN’T WARRANTED –
I ADMIT AT TIMES WE PUSHED EACH OTHER TOO FAR PAST THE BEND, AT TIMES I FELT TRAPPED,
FORCED INTO A CORNER WITH MYSELF LEFT TO DEFEND, EMOTIONALLY PINNED, AND SO I TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY ACTIONS, OVER TIME WE BOTH LEARNED TO AMEND,
WE BOTH HAD TO MATURE TO UNDERSTAND AND LISTEN,
MEANWHILE OUR FAMILY CONTINUED TO GROW AND EXTEND,
MANY YEARS BEYOND BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND,
IN TIME MY LAST NAME TO YOUR FIRST NAME WE DID APPEND, JUST FELT TOO LATE LIKE IT WAS A CONSOLATION,
WHEN YOU FELT UNLOVED I FELT OR I FELT UNLOVED OVER OUR HOUSEHOLD ATTITUDES AND MISTREATMENT WOULD SUSPEND,
LIKE A GREAT BIG CLOUD THAT WE COULDN’T EXPEND, AND THEN,
A GREATER INTRUSION, WHAT WAS DRESSED IN A HELPING HAND TURNED OUT TO BE AN ENEMY DRESSED IN SHEEPS SKIN,
NOW ENTERS THE GREATEST MOMENTS IN LIFE COUPLED WITH MORE ACTIONS THAT TRANSCEND,
FAMILY EVENTS SOME OF WHICH WE DID AND DIDN’T TOGETHER ATTEND, SUPPORT SYSTEM PROVIDED SOME PHENOMENAL DIVIDENDS,
EVERY WEEKEND, IT BECAME A TREND, SOME MISTAKES WERE MADE AND ULTIMATELY CREATED DIVISION,
LIFE HAS A FUNNY WAY OF SHOWING YOU LESSONS AT THE TIME YOU’RE GOING THROUGH IT THOUGH YOU SEE THE SIGNS YOU JUST DON’T COMPREHEND,
NOW I REALIZE MY PART YET AND STILL IT IS VERY WELL KNOWN IT WAS NOT MY GOAL OR DONE WITH MALICIOUS INTENT,
MANY DAYS AND NIGHTS I SPENT, ALONE, BARRED, SECLUDED FROM WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN FAMILY EVENTS,
WITH THIS MY HEART WAS NEVER CONTENT, IN STEPS DISREPCT AND WITH THAT I CANNOT CONTEND,
IMMENSE FRUSTRATION, WHEN ONE TURNS OFF THE LIGHTS WITH NO CARE FOR ANYONE, BUT SELF PRESERVATION,
NOW WE JUST PLAY HOUSE AND PRETEND, YOUNG WOMEN SHOULDN’T PLAY WITH THE HEARTS OF GROWN MEN,
NO MATTER HOW YOU SLICE IT IS A SIN,
PEOPLE SEE THE PHYSICAL, BUT MENTALLY IS WHERE IT TRULY BEGINS,
SEARCHING FOR WHO IS AT FAULT IS EXACTLY WHERE NO ONE WINS,
ALL THAT IS, IS DISTRACTION FILLED WITH UNIMPORTANCE,
GROWN FOLKS SHOULDN’T EVER MEDDLE IN THE RELATIONSHIPS OF GOD’S CHILDREN,
THAT IS NOT GODSEND,
NOW I SEE MY KIDS EVERYDAY, BUT ALL THIS TIME INVESTED AND WASTED ONLY TO HAVE FOUND THE END.
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