“WHAT’S BROKE IN ME”

WHAT DIED IN ME, 

WHAT IS BROKEN CAN’T BE PLUGGED FOR IT LEAKS, 

DAYS LOOK BLEAK, 

THOUGHTS THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN PETTY, 

BROKEN DOWN THEN TAKEN AWAY HIGHEST PAIN LEVIED, 

BE THE BETTER MAN THEY ALWAYS USED TO SAY AS THEY THREW THEIR HOMEMADE CONFETTI, 

MEANWHILE AT NIGHT MY NIGHTMARES HAVE ME WAKING UP SWEATY, 

THOUGHTS AT TIMES CONFUSE, SO  MY MIND IF X-RAY’D LOOKS LIKE SPAGHETTI, 

I KNOW IT’S THE PAIN AND HURT THAT KEEPS RUNNING LAPS AROUND MY HEART AND SOUL – NASCAR MICHAEL ANDRETTI, 

I NEVER KNEW NOR THOUGHT THAT LIFE WOULD GET SO DAMN HEAVY, 

I CAN HEAR MY BONES CRACK THE PRESSURE IS FELT DOWN TO MY KNEES, 

FALLING TO THE FLOOR SCREAMING LORD PLEASE NO, PLEASE NO, LORD PLEASE, 

AND THEN I AM FREED………..

STILL WHAT IS BROKEN IN ME IS NOT RELIEVED, 

I GUESS IT’S THE WAY OF REMINDING ME TO BE BETTER THAN WHAT I AM CURRENTLY, 

MY TEARS STILL FALL AND STILL BLEED, 

FROM THE DARKEST CORNERS OF MY MIND TO THE SUNNIEST CORNERS THAT BE, 

IN A CROWDED HOUSE STILL I STAND FEELING LONELY, 

THESE FLASHES OF LIGHT ARE SHORT BEAMS, 

FOR THE SMILES THAT ACTIVATE THE LIGHT AREN’T ALWAYS WHAT IT SEEMS, 

LIFELONG GOALS FILLED WITH SHATTERED DREAMS, 

I JUST NEEDED BETTER FOR YOU EVEN IF THAT EQUALS LESS FOR ME  – THE MORAL IS CONCRETE MEANS, 

I’VE TRIED YOUR KISS,

I’VE LAID IN BLISS, 

LIFE HAS PEAKS AND VALLEYS I KNOW ALL OF THIS, 

YET AND STILL MY PAIN CANNOT BE FIXED……….

WHAT’S BROKE IN ME. 

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