“Why Didn’t You Stay?”

You said you’d be here when it rains,

You left as soon as the weight got heavy – instead, you left when there was pain,

I have lived this past year reviewing my entire life trying to understand,

Why didn’t you stay with me, understandably, I am now a fallen man,

I hurt you so, you love me so, and I loved you through it all,

See acting stupidly caused me to lose, when emotionally I was screaming for you, yet you didn’t understand my call,

Intensified, my love inside, so many years for you I prayed,

And then you came one blissful day, I thought forever would be, please tell me why didn’t you stay?

You replied! You’re love never died, but endure you could no more,

We fussed and would fight, lost lovers site, mentally not physically you could no longer ignore,

Now resides a great divide, in your mind, there has been a birth of a wall,

No longer mine, too many doubts, and no assurance of any future similar fall,

I do understand, I see your hand, you feel you have no other choice,

In lovers land, through all adversity stands a plan, it’s up to you to either listen or simply hear the voice,

I’ve cared for you, I’ve walked for you, I’ve fought my inner ties,

With this love inside, it falls and flies, rises it rose, to tell me lies no more,

Something calmed me, say, was it you one day that while I slept walked into my room?

T’was like an Angel came, took my fears away, and listened to my grief and gloom,

With these words of mine I asked them to deliver a message before it’s too late,

Somberly, I can see, but still don’t understand and believe the reasons you didn’t stay,

I know not the cure, I no longer know you anymore, and you’ve changed the lock on your heart and my key,

It no longer turns, the love I have for you still burns, there’s a fire raging in me,

You’ve left this man, wounded and I just can’t take it anymore,

So sad I am, alone again, why didn’t you stay with me, why’d you choose to close the door?

With you I see the possibility, even though apart we’ve grown,

So many years we’ve spent, so many tears were shed, for you my first love is all I’ve ever known,

Dis-respectfulness, continual bad habits, to me you now display,

Yet at times I see inside of thee, you show me the girl who loves me unconditionally,

Then she is gone again, back to your shell you go,

Like a mermaid on land, I have you for a moment, until the waves come and away, away, away you go,

Somehow to me, I believe, there is a greater force than us all,

It appears to me, scriptures said love endurith through summers, winters, springs, and falls,

There was a time when love was mine, seems so long ago,

Cause now I’m blind, love I cannot find, why did you have to go?

Till death do us part, those words play apart so vividly now in our lives,

I walk thru the rain; with every step is a pain, as if the ground is my heart, soul, and eyes,

I’m stepping on my own, with nowhere to roam, for I no longer have a home,

Until we meet, or conquer and defeat, without you I face the world alone,

At night I pray for a better day, and am thankful for today,

I pray for you, in all you do, and maybe one day you’ll be able to tell me….

Why you didn’t stay.

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